I took the last week of September off from my journal. I'm exhausted and have felt almost to frazzled to think. This has been a very trying month to say the least.
Let's start with the fact that there have been 4 major hurricanes to hit our state in the last few weeks along with all of the preparation and recovery involved with each one, that's enough to leave anyone feeling utterly drained. I'll say no more about it, just the mention of the "H" word makes me tired.
I had a pinched nerve and for over 3 weeks the pain was so excruciating that I couldn't sleep. There was no way to get comfortable enough to fall asleep for more than an hour or so at a time. The pain meds gave some relief but the only time I could get comfortable was when I was at work. There was just something about the really great chairs we have there and the way my arm would rest in just the right spot on my desk that gave me some comfort.
I spent another 2 weeks gradually feeling better and stopped taking the muscle relaxers the minute I could bear the pain without it. I stopped taking the anti-inflammatory a few days ago. I don't smoke, I don't drink (not even coffee) or take any other kinds of medications so it has been a shock to my system to have to take anything for 5 weeks, there is defiantly a detox thing going on here.
There has also been a series of adjustments this past month at my house as Mandy has finished up with her cosmetology classes and is beginning to spread her wings. The whole job search thing between hurricanes coupled with my own soul shifting as I watch our relationship fall from it's place as the center of our lives. I know it's the natural progression of things and yes it's pretty exciting to think of all the space it will open up in my life for new things now but the truth is, that doesn't make it any easier.
For those of you that have been asking, her job is going great, she is at a local salon working as an assistant until she gets her license. She loves and is loved by the people that she works with and the owner has taken her under his wing and has really seemed to embrace this whole mentor thing, lucky girl!
The Presidential race has also been more than a little stressful to me. The issues facing this country just seem more important the me this time around with the huge mess we have going in Iraq among other very important issues.
Normally I consider my self only moderately political at best and although me voting for Bush to remain in office for the next 4 years is totaly out of the question, I am just not comfortable with Kerry thinking I am backing him either. No one has seemed to come up with any good reason to vote for him other than the fact that we do not like Bush and I hate that.
My job ... some major growing pains going on there right now. I won't go into all of the details but we have been in a major transition phase for the past week or so. The changes are very positive ones but have included a lot of attention to some very fast paced detail. All of us there are on overload at the moment. No wonder I needed a journaling break but I am back now. Ahhh ... welcome October
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