Slightly embarrassed but not going to apologize for my last entry. It seems that the combination of the DSL stress, the empty nest syndrome, my drastic schedule change, irregular sleep patterns and yes ... a slight case PMS did have me a little out of sorts.
I found myself laughing out loud as I was reading some of your kind words of concern and suggestions that were left in the comment section of that entry. Thank you very much for leaving them there, they helped.
Maybe it was the dark photo that caused some of you to worry so. Would help to know that I really like that photo? This <-- click this is the night that I took it, what a great time that was!
I'll admit I'm not always comfortable (or even very good) at expressing feelings of being overwhelmed or vulnerable. In my line of work as well as in my roll as Mom the appearance of strength and control is just part of the job description (at least it's always felt like that to me).
Through some of my experiences here in J-Land I am getting a lesson in becoming a better receiver. I am starting to learn what a gift it is to allow other people the occasional opportunity to be the ones offering the kindness and support. It takes practice to learn how to be a gracious receiver and I know that I'm not the only one learning that here.
I think that most of us go through life being either a giver or a taker ... either predominantly the Ying or predominantly the Yang of our own world. Here in J-Land we have a unique opportunity to interactively share very intimate parts of the lives of so many different kinds of people.
If you take a look around as you are journal hopping you'll probably also notice that many of the most grandiose and self absorbed personalities here (and you know who you are) are also getting a lesson in giving, supporting and in being a friend. I love this place:-)
BTW ... special thanks to Suzypwr for suggesting chocolate, you're my kind of friend ... also thanks to lifewrites for being such an awesome cheerleader from the other side of the continent, welcome to J-Land!
Have a good weekend all
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