Thursday, August 19, 2004

Scalzi assignment #20

Weekend Assignment #20: Tell us about your favorite entry of your own from the last 366 days (it's a leap year). Tell us why it still resonates for you. And "favorite" can mean anything you want it to mean: Most amusing, most heartbreaking, most affirmative of yourself, whatever. One good way to think of it is if you could show someone only one entry from your Journal, which one would it be?

     This was the 2nd AOL-J entry that I ever wrote, written on March 24th (notice it had 0 comments).

     I decided to copy and paste, instead of linking to the entry so I can add a related graphic (taken from one of my old journals) and also maybe I will read it a few times this week when I come to post a new entry in Dancing in the Rain.

     Being the lighthouse is still the biggest part of who I am but I am spending a little more time these day's looking out for me:-)

 

Thursday, March 25, 2004
8:35:00 AM EST
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Just like a lighthouse

     I often direct so much of my time and energy to taking care of what's best for the people I love the most. It can become all consuming and often I forget to take care of what's most important me.

     I want my daily rounds to be motivated by making necessary choices that will bring more health, joy, love, creativity, passion and contentment to my own life.

     Today my journey changes direction as I begin to reclaim my life. I will search for the knowledge and determination to make the crucial changes in behavior, thought and attitude so I can become the best that I can be. 

     Over 25 years ago, one of my closest friends Chris wrote a song called Just like a Lighthouse. The lyrics included a part that said "I'm just like a lighthouse on a stormy sea, if your boat gets lost you can depend on me. When it's cold as the rain and it's black as the night, look for me and I am always in sight. But all I want to know is who, who looks out for me when I'm looking out for you?"

     The truth is no one, no one looks out for me. I have spent so much time looking out for them when I should have spent more time looking out for me.

                                  *** Coy ***

      

Written by coy1234787 (Link to this entry)

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4 comments:

danielled1 said...

Precious entry....

Danielle

judithheartsong said...

hugs to you.

slowmotionlife said...

Wow.... I really wish now that I had taken the time to scroll back through your older entries because this is, indeed, your best entry ever.  What a wonderful story - something so many of us can relate to.  I think, for me, my journal has become my way of taking care of myself.  It's the one place where I'm not a mother, or a wife, or a daughter, or a sister, or even a friend - I'm just me.  And for a lot of us, who get lost in our daily roles, this is necessary for sanity.  I'm so glad you found this community and that you've been able to share COY with us all.  We're blessed in knowing you.  ::smile::

cneinhorn said...

Oh Coy! that is so beautiful.......love the lighthouse analagy.......lighthouses are my favorite......great pic........
~jerseygirl
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